Journal Entry: Fri Apr 11, 2014, 11:34 AM
This past Friday April 4th, I had the cochlear implant put in on my left side. I am still feeling pain a pressure and still don't have all the feeling back in my head. But everyday it gets a little better. I still wont know if it is going to work until the first week of May.
I have to wait 4 weeks before they activate it and attach the sound processor. Then I will know if it is going to work. Even though I have only been deaf for a year, I will have to learn how to hear again. I don't quite understand that but since I wont be hearing through my ear, I suppose that takes some getting used to.
I only have a small amount of hearing in my right ear and thats only with a hearing aid. And most of that is so distorted that I can't really understand much with it.
I really don't have the skills that most hearing impaired people have. Because I had normal hearing in my left, over time it got worse because of having Lupus. But I could understand speech and enjoy music. Then I went to bed one night and woke up and it was gone. All of it. That was year ago. We have tried hearing aids and stuff but after a couple months of that the left was so far gone that it could not get sound even with a high powered hearing aid.
It is so sad because there are a lot of people out there whose hearing is not totally gone but they need hearing aids and insurances wont help with the cost. They are not deaf enough for the implant like I just got. So they are stuck trying to pay 5000 dollars for hearing aids so they can hear. Not everyone has cash like that.... I was lucky and was able to get help from my father and was able to borrow the rest. Since I only had the hearing aids for a short time and no longer need 1 for the left, I will be able to return it for a full refund.
And all the pain I am feeling from having my head peeled like a grape... (not so much pain as the itching and pressure that drive me crazy) will soon be forgotten in a few more weeks, when I am hooked up and turned on and hopefully able to hear once again. I probably wont ever really be able to enjoy music like I once did. But just being able to understand what friends and family are saying will make me happy.
Listening to: Silence
Reading: nothing right now
Watching: Game of Thrones
Eating: Vaping a Halo Ecig Tribecca